Monday 3 July 2017
i have left everything behind to carry His cross
have done away with everything I don't need. I have burnt alot of unnecessary things which can't be given out in the first place. Such as tight clothes which can lead men to commit adultery. I know the pain of being married and another woman walks by clad in the most revealing clothes past my hubby and I, and I know the pain of looking at my hubbys eyes roaming with the woman. So I have resulted in wearing long loose fitting clothes. That I may not be held on account of adulerty. Also because I know there's absolutely no "prince charming out there". If my hubby and I are at rough patches, after I have tried being the good wife, I know that there is not a man in this world without a "poison" . "Poison" such as drinking, cheating, gambling, fighting, etc. Each and every man has their own poison to be dealt with. There is not a man to treat you better out there. You have to accept the man you have and deal with his flaws an "poison". You have to lead him to living right but never be fooled that there is a man who will take care of you better. That would be against Gods laws on equality. Why should you have it better? What did you do that was so good to deserve that better? He created us equally. Even Bible marriages are as real as today. Don't leave your man and look for better. There isn't. It's Gods law. You can't change that law. All you can wait for is Christ to change the odds in your favor. If you are the one in the lead at first, the Lord will shift it. Marriage is like a football field. Whoever kicks the ball is given all the chances by God to be in the lead. Then turns change and whoever was "boss" becomes the "servant". And the "servant" becomes "boss". It keeps rotating to show that you are all equally important. And you are all of good use to each other and are one in His eyes. A good wife/hubby uses the time they're in power(in the house) like Joseph in the Bible. Doing good deeds to stay in favor with the Lord to prolong your lead for as long as possible. Instead of using the lead for revenge purposes on all the times umekaliwa chapati. That period lasts for very short. If you leave your man, then make Christ your man otherwise you will be committing adultery in His eyes. It is adultery in His eyes. I have cleaned out my closet good and proper. I have very little with me and I feel a peace underneath me. My life feels like boarding school. Just very little, what I need. I spend my days reading the Bible, taking care of my cucu and watching the skies as the Lord said there will be signs in the end times. I have absolutely nothing materialistically and nothing in my name. Not a house. Not a car. Not any property. If I died, I would die like a "nobody". Nobody would feel the shift. And I am very joyful for that. I am living the Christ way. You have to be a "nobody" that people may start to look for other ways to spend the time that we all have. They will find Jesus. When you understand the Bible, you understand that we are not meant to make legends of ourselves. It drives people to another focus so anyone who does so will be brought down. Anyone who is okay with the world as it is, is agreeing with all the evils happening in the world of today as well. We are not supposed to be comfortable in this world. It's a world of good and evil. Jesus promises a world of total peace and He is the only happily ever after. We are supposed to die as nobodies that the Lord reigns. That people have no one to wish to become like, or anyone to compete with, that our eyes and focus may be on the Lord. No other motivation should be. No other purpose. Just the good Lord. Because He controls everything.
Sunday 2 July 2017
find out about your Father and Mother
Honour your father and mother:
This commandment might confuse alot but here's the very truth: Your father and mother is God. Through your mothers womb you came into this world but whether through her or another mother, you still could have come into this world. His plan was that you get into the world. Your mothers womb is your transport into this world. Your fathers seed is the grand design conception method He designed. That you may be half both of them. Proof that your mother and father are just transports into the world: Orphans. Their lives still carry on. They still grow up after being rejected or when their parents exit this world. They grow up by Gods grace, just like every child in the world. Alot of the children in the world have moms and dads but their moms and dads are caught up in other things or have prioritized other things. Work, fight verbally and so forth. But the children still grow. Whether they get fed right, or not, they still grow. Whether they get love or not, they still grow. Whether they are brought up by a nanny or mom, they still grow. Because God gives the love they need. Because God is the father and mother of all. So let us not be worried of what our parents on earth expect from us, let us instead be worried if we are living right according to the One who created us. Jesus said: Matthew 8:21 "Lord, first let me go and bury my father," said a follower of Jesus but Jesus replied, " Follow me. Let the dead bury their own dead." He meant that now the person has left this world and has gone on trial whether they lived right or not in Jesus' standards.
Matthew 10: 37 Jesus said, " Anyone who loves his mother or father more than me is not worthy of me. Anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. And anyone who does not pick up his cross(follow Jesus teachings) to follow me is not worthy of me. If anyone creates his life on this earth, he will lose it. If anyone loses his desires or wants because of me, when he dies he will have eternal life."
This is not just referring to males as theres alot of he/his. In Gods eyes, we are all Adam. Male or female, He sees us as the same thing. God is Jesus.
Friday 30 June 2017
how God denied me things that turned out to be the best for me
When I had my big house, it was a matter of keeping up with trends. The best vases, The best carpet, the best curtains, the best lamps, the best table and dinning chairs, the most expensive of pillows, the best of sofas, the more expensive, the better. That way, no one would reach where I was. Or atleast it would take them time.
But I tell you it was not enough for my eyes to look at our house things to feel some sort of accomplishment. I got tempted to throwing house parties to show off my good taste. So that they would give me praise on how "I had made it". What kept me from inviting people into my house was my hubby. He never wanted to serve any of the few guests I brought to our house. He never wanted not even the milk he had bought to be shared with my guests in fear of what would we eat tomorrow. Am not kidding. Even sharing something as small as milk became a problem. Financially, we were very unstable. All these worked out for the good. God planned it all out for the best. Because had I started throwing bashes, my house would have been the "get together for people." I would have never stopped throwing bashes because the way I had decorated our house and kept it so clean, I would have started living on the peoples praise. To fill the big empty house. Atleast they would have come and thought how lucky I was to have it all and shown me that I was doing something good with my life. That I was important in the society.
What I never thought through: I would have broken the first 2 commandments:
1). People would have come and worshipped the things I had. By idolizing them. By feeling that without those things, life could not be possible. Thus selling the picture that having those "things" is a good god. Thus breaking the most important commanded ever made: You should never have any gods before the LORD. You should not even think of making anything more important than the Lord.
2). My friends would have come and some gotten depressed with their lives on seeing my house. Their pain would be like a loud earthquake of a cry to the Lord on why He has forgotten them. The Lord would not fail their cry and I would have ended up having havoc in my own home. Something would have happened during the bash or in my life to remind me that theres problems in this world. To keep me at humility level.
3) Some would have come and thought on a plot on how to steal from me. This could have ended up being a murder case because they would have come armed and whoever would try to fight them would get injured if not killed. Commandment no: 6 "you should not murder." I couldn't have blamed them. I would be as fully responsible of their actions as they. I would have led them into temptation.
4). Some would have come and hated me by thinking am having it all good. Hate is murder in the eyes of God. Commandment no 6.
5). I would have broken the adultery commandment no:7: Some would have come and fornicated in my house. Am sure alot of them.
6) I would have led others to commit the commandment of "you should not steal" no:8 Some would have come and stolen some "valuables". But how could I put the blame on them? If I could invite people, to show off, not all who would have come would have been angels. Some would have come in hopes of making money out of me. They wouldn't even have felt the pain of stealing from me. They would think I had so much. And that it won't even matter to me.
7). I would have made some commit the crime of giving false testimony no:9 Making up stories about me so that I would not be "it".
8). I would have broken Commandment no. 10. You should not wish for any of your neighbours anything; not the wife; not the workers nor any property they own.
I would not have coveted my own property obviously. I was buying them in the first place to be given praise. At first it was for our little family but my hubby didn't think much of the things we had. And our little baby didn't care where we lived. All she cares is that we are together and not fighting. A little hero she is. But it wasn't enough at that time. I needed more. So I needed other peoples praise. That indeed I had good taste if not great. All so that I may be given a praise to push me through the empty days. But the guests I would have brought with me would have coveted everything I owned. They would have thought that that was true happiness. That way I would have led them down a different path in life. On the material wealth one. But its a very empty one and what happens when God gives us all the same property? To equalize us? I would have become desperate as there would be no more people to praise my "things" anymore. This would have led me to drink. Drinking life away to escape it. That all that big house means absolutely nothing. That all that big house cannot bring even the tiniest bit of happiness. Then my heart would be as empty as my big house before I knew Jesus.
Thursday 29 June 2017
GENESIS:GOD COMMANDS LANDS TO ARISE OUT OF THE SEAS
DAY 4
He looked at the seas and ordered the opposite to pop out of them. And dry land came up. He called it the ground. It was the opposite of the seas. The seas were wet and full of waters while the ground was dry and full of soil. He then ordered trees to come forth out of the ground and to keep producing after themselves. He commanded every sort of vegetation in His mind to come to life and to produce after itself beneath the seas and on the land. Of every shape, color and texture. For food mainly. He made them come up from both land and waters so that, none would overpower the other. The seas would hold as much life as the dry lands. All this took a thousands of years or billion of years to man but only a day to God. And everything happened as He commanded. He called this beautiful day, day four.
God does take time to create a masterpiece. You are His masterpiece. He will carve you like a clay pot and cut out all the unnecessary bits. You will feel the pain but one day you will wonder on how to thank Him for such love. It will one day be worth it.
He looked at the seas and ordered the opposite to pop out of them. And dry land came up. He called it the ground. It was the opposite of the seas. The seas were wet and full of waters while the ground was dry and full of soil. He then ordered trees to come forth out of the ground and to keep producing after themselves. He commanded every sort of vegetation in His mind to come to life and to produce after itself beneath the seas and on the land. Of every shape, color and texture. For food mainly. He made them come up from both land and waters so that, none would overpower the other. The seas would hold as much life as the dry lands. All this took a thousands of years or billion of years to man but only a day to God. And everything happened as He commanded. He called this beautiful day, day four.
God does take time to create a masterpiece. You are His masterpiece. He will carve you like a clay pot and cut out all the unnecessary bits. You will feel the pain but one day you will wonder on how to thank Him for such love. It will one day be worth it.
GENESIS: THE SUN, THE MOON AND THEIR PURPOSE
DAY 3
There was night, day, sky and the seas. Beautiful and peaceful as it was, He looked at the day and night and felt that they needed something. Lights. One would rule on the day(Sun) and the other would rule the night(moon). It took a thousand years or more to create the sun, moon and the stars. He saw it was good. He called this day three.
Did you know that:
Without the sun, there would be no directions or compasses made?the sun is the one thing that never changes where it rises from and sets at.
Without the moon, there would be no calender. The moon marks the end of one month and the beginning of another month. And yes, it is mightily beautiful to look at together with the stars on a quiet night even just alone without company. And to spend time thanking God for His love for us or all. By praying.
There was night, day, sky and the seas. Beautiful and peaceful as it was, He looked at the day and night and felt that they needed something. Lights. One would rule on the day(Sun) and the other would rule the night(moon). It took a thousand years or more to create the sun, moon and the stars. He saw it was good. He called this day three.
Did you know that:
Without the sun, there would be no directions or compasses made?the sun is the one thing that never changes where it rises from and sets at.
Without the moon, there would be no calender. The moon marks the end of one month and the beginning of another month. And yes, it is mightily beautiful to look at together with the stars on a quiet night even just alone without company. And to spend time thanking God for His love for us or all. By praying.
GENESIS: LET THERE BE HEAVENS AND SEAS
DAY 2
There was darkness and there was light. For a thousand years or more, it remained that way. Then God separated the waters and the skies. He called the skies 'heavens' and the waters 'seas'. He created the heavenly beings too on the second day. The angels. He looked at them. He saw it was good. So He called this the second day.
There was darkness and there was light. For a thousand years or more, it remained that way. Then God separated the waters and the skies. He called the skies 'heavens' and the waters 'seas'. He created the heavenly beings too on the second day. The angels. He looked at them. He saw it was good. So He called this the second day.
GENESIS: LET THERE BE LIGHT
DAY 1
After 1000 years or more to man, all equivalent to 1 day to God, He decided to create the opposite of darkness. Light. And He looked at the light. And He saw it was good. He called the darkness night. He called the light day. It was beautiful. He balanced the two perfectly; 12 hours of day and 12 hours of night.
The darkness needs the light to be darkness. The light needs darkness to be light. Even in life; without some dark moments, you wouldn't know you were having it good.
What is "to have it good?"
Simplicity. You are okay with Gods perfect design of life and you know that He is always with you through thick and thin.
To be content with what God has in store for you. Be it to be a wife, husband, father, mother, widow, widower, prophet of God, friend, grandma, grandpa, uncle, aunt, daughter,son, niece, nephew, cousin, crippled or grandchild.
To have little because you want to share in the suffering of the worlds pains.
To have little so that you don't get left behind when Jesus comes for His sheep. Luke 17:30 Have nothing that you love too much. It might deceive you that you are having it great and cheat you to want to get left behind. This is not a world to live in. When God doesn't speak anymore, its not a world to live in. When theres just alot of harmful acts, maybe not happening to you, still, its not a world to be content with. We need a world where we can see our king. And serve our God face to face without not knowing if we are offending God.
GENESIS: DARKNESS
GENESIS: THE BEGINNING
In the beginning, there was darkness. It was just dark. God was in the darkness for a thousand years or more. He was comfortable in it. (thats why its still out there, in outter space. Its the one place He understands fully. Its His darkness).
why was God in the darkness:
to understand the cold. To understand the pain. To understand the dark moments in our lives. He was there for a very long time. So He understands our darknesses the best.
In the beginning, there was darkness. It was just dark. God was in the darkness for a thousand years or more. He was comfortable in it. (thats why its still out there, in outter space. Its the one place He understands fully. Its His darkness).
why was God in the darkness:
to understand the cold. To understand the pain. To understand the dark moments in our lives. He was there for a very long time. So He understands our darknesses the best.
the creation story
GENESIS: THE BEGINNING
In the beginning, there was darkness. It was just dark. God was in the darkness for a thousand years or more. He was comfortable in it. (thats why its still out there, in outter space. Its the one place He understands fully. Its His darkness).
DAY 1
After 1000 years or more to man, all equivalent to 1 day to God, He decided to create the opposite of darkness. Light. And He looked at the light. And He saw it was good. He called the darkness night. He called the light day. It was beautiful. He balanced the two perfectly; 12 hours of day and 12 hours of night. The darkness needs the light to be darkness. The light needs darkness to be light. Even in life; without some dark moments, you wouldn't know you were having it good.
What is "to have it good?"
Simplicity. You are okay with Gods perfect design of life and you know that He is always with you through thick and thin.
To be content with what God has in store for you. Be it to be a wife, husband, father, mother, widow, widower, prophet of God, friend, grandma, grandpa, uncle, aunt, daughter,son, niece, nephew, cousin, crippled or grandchild
To have little because you want to share in the suffering of the worlds pains.
DAY 2
There was darkness and there was light. For a thousand years or more, it remained that way. Then God separated the seas and the skies. He looked at them. He saw it was good. So He called this the second day.
DAY 3
There was night, day, sky and the seas. Beautiful and peaceful as it was, He added two lights. One would rule on the day(Sun) and the other would rule the night(moon). It took a thousand years or more to create the sun, moon and the stars. He saw it was good. He called this day three.
Did you know that:
without the sun there would be no directions or compasses made?the sun is the one thing that never changes where it rises from and sets at.
Without the moon, there would be no calender. The moon marks the end of one month and the beginning of another month. And yes, it is mightily beautiful to look at.
DAY 4
He looked at the seas and ordered the opposite to pop out of them. And dry land came up. He called it the ground. It was the opposite of the seas. The seas were wet and full of waters while the ground was dry and full of soil. He ordered trees to come forth out of the ground and to keep producing after themselves. He commanded the same vegetation to produce after themselves beneath the seas. That way, none would overpower the other. The seas would hold as much life as the dry lands. All this took a thousands of years or billion of years to man but only a day to God. And everything happened as He commanded. He called this beautiful day, day four.
DAY 5
He looked at the vegetation and the thought of animals to keep the vegetation at neat lengths and to give the vegetation purpose. Every animal He thought of came forth from the ground. Every animal that was on the ground He made also to exist in the waters. To balance the ground and the seas. From the birds of the air and the seas to the larger animals of the land and the seas. It was good.( It was breathtaking.) He called this day five.
DAY 6
He looked at the animals and thought of creating one like Himself. And so He made man in His very own image. To take care of the animals. He commanded the dust to rise and form into a being that looked like Him. And it did. He breathed the breath of life into his nostrils and the man became a living being. God called him Adam. This was the sixth day. It was good.
DAY 7
God looked at the creation and saw it was all good and took a rest on the seventh day. He blessed it as all His work was now complete.
WHAT DOES THE STORY OF CREATION TEACH US? EVERYTHING.
1. We only need the things God gave us. The rest are our desires. (Jesus taught us to be careful with where we are most drawn to, because thats where our hearts are. And He said that we should not have things that might make us look back like Lots wife and get left behind to burn when He returns.
( Luke 17:31 suppose someone is on the roof of his house on that day when I come back. And suppose his valuables are inside the house. He should not go down to get them. No one in the field should go back for anything either. Remember Lots wife. Anyone who tries to keep his life will lose it and anyone who loses his life will keep it) ).
Besides, when you have less, you create more room for Jesus. You give Him room in your heart other than squeezing Him in there with all your desires.
When you have less, you learn to share.
When you have less, you learn to care about others which is a special gift of the Holy Spirit. When you have less, you learn to love. Jesus said that the two greatest commandments that you can show are:
1). Love your God. The God of Abraham, Israel and Jacob.
2). Love your neighbour as you love yourself.
When you follow these two commandments, you follow all of Gods commandments. You do to others as you would wish to be done unto.
Meaning of:
Anyone who tries to keep his life will lose it *if you show Jesus that the world is okay as it is, beside knowing the many problems there are, you certainly will be on the wrong side. The world is full of harmful acts. And just because you might be enjoying your life doesnt mean that all is well with the rest of the world. Infact those who look back and think that all is well with the world will get a taste of the cruel world that they are preferring to live in. A world of chaos where everything evil is permitted. Then the flames will come and burn it all up to end it because it is Gods world and He may do as He pleases. A word of prayer is always good to tell Jesus to share a good moment that you just had to someone else who really needs it. And be specific when you are mentioning who Jesus should bless. (its just a much better way of doing things. Its special when someone tells you thank you for a specific reason other than to generalise everything. Even unto Jesus, its special when you can name unto Him a couple of people who need His love.)And its a blessing to remember to give thanks to Jesus for everything. Because its only by His favor that we share some good moments in our lives. Jesus once healed 10 lepers. Only one came back to say thank you. Jesus asked him of his other 9 friends and asked if their lives had not been changed in a second by Him as well. He then told his followers that give thanks even for the littlest of deeds and you will receive more in heaven. Because you understood that its only by favor.
and anyone who loses his life will keep it
*if you are having it real bad you are in the right place. It was never meant to be easy in the first place. So you are right to live in awaiting the return of Jesus because life down here is just awful bad. Not even the Bible prophets or those who walked with God had it easy. Everyone in the Bible shares deep grief. Its all for a reason: Because Jesus is choosing His next shepherds for His throne. Those who can bear the worst times on earth in order to receive the good times in Heaven.
Short story:
A young girl had a cat. Her cat was a very picky eater so she often found herself finishing her plate of food and denying her cat any, because her cat had made it clear that she would only eat certain foods. The cat only ate what she wanted. The rest, she sniffed and went off to hunt her preferred choice. So after trying to make the cat eat what she ate, the girl just gave up trying because she kept thinking to herself, "my cat won't eat what I give her anyway. Besides why cant she eat what I eat at my worst times that I may give her extra when I eat the food that she enjoys? The mother saw this and told her that this is how Jesus works. If you can accept everything He hands out for you, then He will give you greater because like a good dog, you never went out to find any other solutions to your problems. You went to His Holy book and searched for those who went through what you went through to know how to handle your situation. And you prayed and were patient to wait on Him for what you asked for. You understood that sometimes there was good times and at other times, not so great times. And that's okay with you because you know everything happens for a reason. Its Gods special design for your life. To shine His light in your darkness.
The young girl fed her cat because she remembered the times that Jesus did her good regardless of whether she had said thank you or not. Jesus is a good shepherd. The greatest master anyone will ever serve.
In the beginning, there was darkness. It was just dark. God was in the darkness for a thousand years or more. He was comfortable in it. (thats why its still out there, in outter space. Its the one place He understands fully. Its His darkness).
DAY 1
After 1000 years or more to man, all equivalent to 1 day to God, He decided to create the opposite of darkness. Light. And He looked at the light. And He saw it was good. He called the darkness night. He called the light day. It was beautiful. He balanced the two perfectly; 12 hours of day and 12 hours of night. The darkness needs the light to be darkness. The light needs darkness to be light. Even in life; without some dark moments, you wouldn't know you were having it good.
What is "to have it good?"
Simplicity. You are okay with Gods perfect design of life and you know that He is always with you through thick and thin.
To be content with what God has in store for you. Be it to be a wife, husband, father, mother, widow, widower, prophet of God, friend, grandma, grandpa, uncle, aunt, daughter,son, niece, nephew, cousin, crippled or grandchild
To have little because you want to share in the suffering of the worlds pains.
DAY 2
There was darkness and there was light. For a thousand years or more, it remained that way. Then God separated the seas and the skies. He looked at them. He saw it was good. So He called this the second day.
DAY 3
There was night, day, sky and the seas. Beautiful and peaceful as it was, He added two lights. One would rule on the day(Sun) and the other would rule the night(moon). It took a thousand years or more to create the sun, moon and the stars. He saw it was good. He called this day three.
Did you know that:
without the sun there would be no directions or compasses made?the sun is the one thing that never changes where it rises from and sets at.
Without the moon, there would be no calender. The moon marks the end of one month and the beginning of another month. And yes, it is mightily beautiful to look at.
DAY 4
He looked at the seas and ordered the opposite to pop out of them. And dry land came up. He called it the ground. It was the opposite of the seas. The seas were wet and full of waters while the ground was dry and full of soil. He ordered trees to come forth out of the ground and to keep producing after themselves. He commanded the same vegetation to produce after themselves beneath the seas. That way, none would overpower the other. The seas would hold as much life as the dry lands. All this took a thousands of years or billion of years to man but only a day to God. And everything happened as He commanded. He called this beautiful day, day four.
DAY 5
He looked at the vegetation and the thought of animals to keep the vegetation at neat lengths and to give the vegetation purpose. Every animal He thought of came forth from the ground. Every animal that was on the ground He made also to exist in the waters. To balance the ground and the seas. From the birds of the air and the seas to the larger animals of the land and the seas. It was good.( It was breathtaking.) He called this day five.
DAY 6
He looked at the animals and thought of creating one like Himself. And so He made man in His very own image. To take care of the animals. He commanded the dust to rise and form into a being that looked like Him. And it did. He breathed the breath of life into his nostrils and the man became a living being. God called him Adam. This was the sixth day. It was good.
DAY 7
God looked at the creation and saw it was all good and took a rest on the seventh day. He blessed it as all His work was now complete.
WHAT DOES THE STORY OF CREATION TEACH US? EVERYTHING.
1. We only need the things God gave us. The rest are our desires. (Jesus taught us to be careful with where we are most drawn to, because thats where our hearts are. And He said that we should not have things that might make us look back like Lots wife and get left behind to burn when He returns.
( Luke 17:31 suppose someone is on the roof of his house on that day when I come back. And suppose his valuables are inside the house. He should not go down to get them. No one in the field should go back for anything either. Remember Lots wife. Anyone who tries to keep his life will lose it and anyone who loses his life will keep it) ).
Besides, when you have less, you create more room for Jesus. You give Him room in your heart other than squeezing Him in there with all your desires.
When you have less, you learn to share.
When you have less, you learn to care about others which is a special gift of the Holy Spirit. When you have less, you learn to love. Jesus said that the two greatest commandments that you can show are:
1). Love your God. The God of Abraham, Israel and Jacob.
2). Love your neighbour as you love yourself.
When you follow these two commandments, you follow all of Gods commandments. You do to others as you would wish to be done unto.
Meaning of:
Anyone who tries to keep his life will lose it *if you show Jesus that the world is okay as it is, beside knowing the many problems there are, you certainly will be on the wrong side. The world is full of harmful acts. And just because you might be enjoying your life doesnt mean that all is well with the rest of the world. Infact those who look back and think that all is well with the world will get a taste of the cruel world that they are preferring to live in. A world of chaos where everything evil is permitted. Then the flames will come and burn it all up to end it because it is Gods world and He may do as He pleases. A word of prayer is always good to tell Jesus to share a good moment that you just had to someone else who really needs it. And be specific when you are mentioning who Jesus should bless. (its just a much better way of doing things. Its special when someone tells you thank you for a specific reason other than to generalise everything. Even unto Jesus, its special when you can name unto Him a couple of people who need His love.)And its a blessing to remember to give thanks to Jesus for everything. Because its only by His favor that we share some good moments in our lives. Jesus once healed 10 lepers. Only one came back to say thank you. Jesus asked him of his other 9 friends and asked if their lives had not been changed in a second by Him as well. He then told his followers that give thanks even for the littlest of deeds and you will receive more in heaven. Because you understood that its only by favor.
and anyone who loses his life will keep it
*if you are having it real bad you are in the right place. It was never meant to be easy in the first place. So you are right to live in awaiting the return of Jesus because life down here is just awful bad. Not even the Bible prophets or those who walked with God had it easy. Everyone in the Bible shares deep grief. Its all for a reason: Because Jesus is choosing His next shepherds for His throne. Those who can bear the worst times on earth in order to receive the good times in Heaven.
Short story:
A young girl had a cat. Her cat was a very picky eater so she often found herself finishing her plate of food and denying her cat any, because her cat had made it clear that she would only eat certain foods. The cat only ate what she wanted. The rest, she sniffed and went off to hunt her preferred choice. So after trying to make the cat eat what she ate, the girl just gave up trying because she kept thinking to herself, "my cat won't eat what I give her anyway. Besides why cant she eat what I eat at my worst times that I may give her extra when I eat the food that she enjoys? The mother saw this and told her that this is how Jesus works. If you can accept everything He hands out for you, then He will give you greater because like a good dog, you never went out to find any other solutions to your problems. You went to His Holy book and searched for those who went through what you went through to know how to handle your situation. And you prayed and were patient to wait on Him for what you asked for. You understood that sometimes there was good times and at other times, not so great times. And that's okay with you because you know everything happens for a reason. Its Gods special design for your life. To shine His light in your darkness.
The young girl fed her cat because she remembered the times that Jesus did her good regardless of whether she had said thank you or not. Jesus is a good shepherd. The greatest master anyone will ever serve.
Wednesday 28 June 2017
How I wind up on the Bible
I went to Italy to seek greener pastures. I was shocked to find life as ordinary as it is back home. So I told my hubby to take me back home. For two years he refused but God easened his heart to accept at last.
When I returned back to Kenya, my life was hopeless. I had based my entire life on my hubby and baby and I had returned with neither. I was at the lowest point of my life. I wanted to die. I questioned this life thoroughly. I wondered why on earth I was existing.
I had no material wealth and am glad I didn't because it would have been more pointless to live. Because no material wealth can buy eternal happiness. Temporary sure, but one would end up with alot of unnecessary meaningless things and all that buying would weaken the spirit living inside us. The Holy Spirit. Plus if you base your happiness on what you buy or how much you buy, your mind and heart will be deceived and you wont find any other reason to exist. You will say to yourself,"I bought alot yet I never felt happy."
I was depressed and started planning on how I would exit this world. I was staying at my grandmas place. I thought of the easiest suicide. To sleep with a jiko on. The lack of air would suffocate my very life. It was perfect until my grandma asked me to leave the kitchen. I was angry that she would tell me of such a thing. She did not understand my pain. She had never been in my shoes, so I thought.(she is 90 and has seen all possible times. Good, bad, great and pain, so I am learning slowly. She even lost a daughter(my mom) and she is still braving it out. )
I am a firstborn child and as firstborns, we tend to feel that the entire world is against us. I was never spoilt anywhere in my life. So I felt that I was never getting my happily ever after and that I would never( I have come to understand happily ever after only exists with Jesus). I have never valued the value of money because when I was in school, the teacher told us the story of Job. A very rich man who lost everything because of Gods favor. It was enough for me to never wish to be rich. If God would take it all away from me as a test, then why have it in the first place? And I don't think I would have had all the strength he had(Job). But now that I know God, I know all the strength comes from Him. Plus the story of the rich man and Lazarus stayed in my heart like buried treasure. God told the rich man He would visit him. God came as a beggar and the rich man missed out on God, expecting a very wealthy, clean man. There was also another story that Jesus taught about the rich man and the poor beggar who stayed at the rich mans gate. When the two died, the rich man burnt for eternity and the beggar got his goid rest in paradise for eternity. I never wanted to ever be rich and to miss out on a one on one with the Creator. So I kept wealth as far much as I could.
. At my grangmas place, it took me about 3 months to want to understand how God works. I claimed to know God but I had never really read His book on what He expects from me. I then started asking myself, "what if I die and God asks me whether I deserve a second chance? Would I really say that out of everyone else that am the one who got it the worst? How sure would I be that on His scale I would be correct to be the one to have suffered the most? What if He promises to be with me this time round? Then I thought, what if I'm already living as my second chance? Then I thought of the people in jail. If they could face life all through, no matter some serving crimes they didnt commit to the very end, wouldn't they stand against me on judgement day and say that I gave up too quickly? So I thought to myself: Why not do a good life to be on the safe side with God?Because if the punishment is to return unto this earth, then why bother trying to see God then assure Him that I will be a much better person? Why not do one good life or die trying to have aced it in His chart.
Life in this world is painful. There is alot of harmful acts that people are doing. So who can be brave enough to return? Not even the one who had favor with God can. When the Creator is quiet, this is not a place to live in. When you have to figure out things by yourself, this is not a place to return to, even as a different person. The pain will still feel the same. The emptiness that only Jesus fills fully will still be there. It is then that I took the Bible to understand why and my purpose. As I read the Bible, I am learning how God created this world. We are not supposed to have it all. Otherwise what sort of a God would make others suffer and others not. He is a fair and just God. Besides, many have braved out life as widows in the Bible. Others as women whose children were slain in times of kings who were told that new kings had been born. Others as slaves for 400yrs! Never even tasting what freedom felt like. They will stand up on judgement day and say they faced it out. P:S God brought us into this world. So only He can decide whether one doesn't deserve to be judged or not. Only He can decide ones fate after death. The power is all in His hands.
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